becoming confident

I'm going to disable comments on my pics from now on. This isn't because someone was mean to me or something, cuz I would think that if someone I watched did this, its because of something sherlock said in the show elementary. Something like ppl being egotistical and always putting every step forward out there just to get reassurance from their peers. Now I like the art I make, most of the time, & I want other ppl to feel good about it too, but I'm always looking for immediate rewards when I post something. & sometimes if I don't get that I question whether or not that piece was good & if I like it anymore. So until I am able to simply upload a piece for the sake of sharing & not response I won't be allowing comments. Although hardly anyone comments its the first step I can think to take. I suppose it really didn't need explanation but..
I'm also trying to not talk to my family about art ideas cuz I want to figure out what I, truly I, consider a good idea & be confident in that decistion.

This was also probably me getting reassurance for my actions again. Oh I also really want to be able to tell ppl how disgusting they are to me & or be mean to them w/o being scared I'm going to hurt them & accept it if I do. Because sherlock did that & I was jus blown away w/ respect right there. Ya that sounds really bad but.. *shrugs*

Thanks for reading any of this, if u read it all super thanks